2020 off to a ragged start

Things change quickly and emotions can rule the day. Tina underwent a surgery to remove two papillomas that were benign and she is recovering with some soreness and nerve pain. Dr Klade had us follow up with an oncologist who explained Tina’s risk for developing any atypical cells or precancerous cells is less than 5%. More exercise weight loss and healthy diet are the needed tools to keep the risk low. 

We celebrated my Dads 100th birthday in January with family and friends at my brothers home in Oak Island. The Mayor if Caswell Beach came and read a proclamation declaring the day Joe Kitchings Day. Unfortunately dad got sick in the early morning hours of Sunday March 15th and he died a week ago in the morning hours of March 16th.  We had a Zoom video conference with family members yesterday to share feelings and stories about dad, grand dad and great dad. My heart has been so sad. I should be asleep but had to write in order to control the emotions flowing throughout my soul. 

And with the health crisis causing us to practice social distancing and shelter at home a full blown case of depression  is trying to settle in. 

Reflecting on 2019

Living through the eyes of a person who has failed to find peace of mind has kept me off balance for most of the year. I have so many things to be thankful for starting with my sobriety of 14 months. The people in our children’s lives keeping them safe and engaged. Our health. The movie car. My round of golf of 81! Preston’s development at Dominon Martial Arts.  His acceptance into the Young Naperville Singers.  His participation on the worship team at church. Tina’s new job. Talia’s increased talent at drawing. Her outstanding learning in first grade. My excellent review after an earlier disappointing one. My good Lung CT scan. Tina’s good thyroid scan and X-ray. 

Looking forward to continuing (starting to reread what I’ve forgotten) Men In Green— momentarily saddened by the words “just another misstep in a long series of them”; reflecting on them realizing regardless of how those words apply to my life I am where I am today in a good safe place. Need to  just focus on the good not the bad. God will bless me if I leave Satan alone. While I cannot go back  and change anything I certainly do lament the passing of so many dear friends and lovers over the years.